Would you LOVE me now?…

on March 8, 2014


If you don’t receive love from the ones who are meant to love you, you will never stop looking for it. – Robert Goolrick

She was the first wife! Her husband had married her first….so she had more rights to him. Yes, she knew she had gone along in tricking him to marry her….and she felt bad …but he was still her husband!
Leah watched as Jacob and Rachel talked….the light in his eyes when he spoke to her….the loving way he treated her. Now that was love….a love Leah had never experienced but longed for from her husband.
She had become accustomed to this way of life….a life of being rejected and unloved….unnoticed …and there was nothing she could do about it. She had loved her husband for over five years with no result. She looked away, knowing that she was not the one he wanted but was forced on him and for that reason she had to pay for it.
“Jacob won’t you come in to my tent to see me tonight?” She asked when they were alone eating supper. He said another night…that he was too tired from the days work. Leah knew if it were Rachel he would willingly forget his tired state. She sighed and with sorrow in her heart retired to her quarters.
Her husband came to her room for mere marital obligation rather than the passion between a man and a woman. She remembered their wedding night when he had wanted so badly to discover every inch of her…so immersed was he in his desire that he hadn’t known she wasn’t his intended. And now she watched him as he grew in love with another woman….her sister.
For better or worse….for better was when you had children and a sweet life with your family and prosperity was at its peak…… But for worse, people thought for worse was when there was no money, there was sickness or when one’s husband died or something of the sort…….but what she felt was worse was when your husband didn’t love you and you knew he loved someone else…..couldn’t God possibly turn her husband’s heart to her? Wasn’t that plausible? But maybe…just maybe if she had children….maybe he would love her…..

Few years later….

Their courtyard was filled with the sounds of children running about and having fun…..without a care of any trouble. Leah had finally been able to have children of her own…including children from her maid Zilpah, but that was not worth talking about…… Had she finally won the affection of her husband now that she had had three plus children for him?…..sadly no….
Her different quests to make her husband love her were futile….
Through the course of the years she had learnt children could not win the love of a man….
The supposed passionate times she had had with Jacob in bed hadn’t won him over….so sex could never make him love her…no matter how she sought to please him…. She had done things she never would have thought possible….purchasing his attention for the night….acting like a prostitute.
If a man didn’t want you….he simply didn’t want you…. So knowing she wasn’t going to divorce her husband she decided to shift her attention towards God and her children….those were the people who would love her endlessly….

Unrequited love………loving someone who doesn’t love you back. We all want to be loved by someone.
Its like Tayo liking Kehinde when Kehinde likes Mayowa ….. One way or the other we have experienced this and if you haven’t then I hope you never do. But then I ask can we continue to love someone who doesn’t love us?

Jesus came into this world to save us from our sins…
1 John 3 vs 5  ” But you know that he appeared so that he might take away our sins. And in him is no sin.”

John 3 vs 16 , “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”

He loved us right before we decided to love Him….

1 John 4 vs 9-10; ‘9 This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. 10 This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins.’

1 John 3 vs 1 “See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him.”

On His part that is GREAT…….. its hard when we love (romantic love) and the person doesn’t feel the same way……but know this….hope isn’t lost…. don’t force yourself on someone heaping up false hopes for yourself….don’t think of using ‘love potion’……WAIT ’cause God makes everything beautiful in it’s time.

Bask yourself in His love and love yourself…..yeah its hard but the pain won’t last forever……

If you have any experiences please do share and let’s learn….


10 responses to “Would you LOVE me now?…

  1. Oreoluwa says:

    This is an excellent piece, using the characters of Jacobs and his wives to depict our relationship with one another and God’s relationship with us. I hope through this post, we’ll understand the powerful nature of God’s love towards us regardless of our sinful and unstable nature
    Well done, tope

    • @ Oreoluwa….’The powerful nature of God’s love’ I like that…..God is awesome and His love for us is beyond our understanding….I pray we really do begin to understand and know more about His love and our relationship with him would definitely be different . Thank God for this…..Thanks Oreoluwa.

  2. Words spoken from the heart.
    Great write up, I enjoyed it.

  3. becky says:

    This shows that you can’t force man to love but God irrespective of who we are showed us true love but becos of the nature of man we still do not acknowledge God’ s love towards us and that’ s the reason we still ve people who still don’t love God and re still committing sin. Lord have mercy. Beautiful piece.

  4. bossmarkblog says:

    This is lovely everyone deserves to love and be loved but infatuation also feels like love , it only takes a deep experience of pain to realise infatuation isn’t love

  5. seun says:

    Well said

  6. Johnson Unwana-abasi says:

    Wow! That is a beautiful script. Keep up the good work. God bless the works of your hands.

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