I woke up that morning and smiled. My hand reached out to the other side of the bed to find it empty. I turned to see the white sheet rumpled but bare; he wasn’t there.

“My love…” I called out in a voice groggy from sleep and satiated with pleasure. No answer. ‘Maybe he’s downstairs’
I got up,  said my prayers and made my way to the bathroom to take a shower and brush my teeth.

After taking care of the necessary things, I dressed up in a pink peplum gown and hot red heels and went down the stairs in search of the man that had won my heart barely three years ago.  His smile had warmed my heart,  his character had taught me in so many ways he didn’t even know.

Walking to the kitchen I already thought of how I was going to greet him that morning; wrapping my hands around his torso and kissing his neck,  at least the heels would allow me reach it considering my small frame ‘his lil’ cupcake’ as he fondly called me. The endearment brought a smile to my face.

Another surprise awaited me when I didn’t find him in the kitchen. My heart did a flip-flop for fear he had left. Insecurities had been one of my many challenges,  wondering if he would return from work,  if he truly loved me like he said he did,  if I brought pleasure to him…
And he would always calm my fears with loving assurances.  ‘So where was he?’

My eyes scanned the room and noticed the note on the table. I hurried towards it and picked it up quickly to read its content.  ‘Hey love, had to hurry off to work and didn’t want to wake you up. I love you. . . My lil’ cupcake. Would call you soon. . . ‘

I smiled and held the note close to my chest,  the scent of his cologne filling my senses… he hadn’t left me after all.


         Sweetness in His presence

My body longs for You

My Soul thirsts for You

If you aren’t by my side then I feel meaningless. . . Empty

If food could satisfy the hunger then I wouldn’t need You

If water could quench my thirst then I could live without You

Psalm 119 vs 103 (KJV): How sweet are thy words unto my taste! yea, sweeter than honey to my mouth!

An intense desire is what I have for you

The offering of the fruit of my lips ushers in Your presence…

Psalm 63 Vs 3 (NIV): Because your love is better than life,  my lips will glorify you.

The ecstasy experienced when praising You ; a great joy!

Have you ever felt like you aren’t feeling God’s presence in your life? That closeness. . .

I read a devotional that spoke about Jesus being the bread of life and asking me to think about the last time I felt really hungry… how I felt having no food when I wanted it so badly and if I equally hungered for Jesus that way. . . It spoke to me deeply.

I feel alone at the moment, like I can’t feel Him like before or how I would like to feel Him and I wonder if He’s still there.  So I decided to seek Him out with praise and there He was… And I’m reminded that nothing can separate His love for me…

Romans 8 vs 38-39 (KJV) : 38 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
39 Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

If you feel you aren’t having enough of Him…seek Him out in praise.



IN DUE TIME by Blessing Oladejo


Admit it, there are parts of the Bible that are difficult to digest. Certain words sting going down and sometimes cause us to question our faith.

In the Old Testament story of Hannah, I found staring at me, like a dagger, seven words about why Hannah could not conceive a child: because the Lord had closed her womb.

In fact, those seven disturbing words are found twice in just two verses, so we don’t miss the fact that God was the One who was withholding from Hannah what she wanted most (1 Samuel 1:4-5).

Poor Hannah. All she wanted was a child. She wanted to be a mom just like every woman around her. She didn’t seem to be asking God for much. And to make matters worse, she was constantly mocked and ridiculed by her husband’s other wife for her inability to conceive a child. But when we get to those seven disturbing words that explain, but don’t really explain, why Hannah couldn’t have a child, it’s difficult to not blame God for her misery. And within those seven stinging words are four words that explain – or don’t really explain – the troubles we experience today, too: because the Lord had…

I know those words too well, by now. Maybe you do, too:

…because the Lord had changed his heart.

…because the Lord had withheld another child.

…because the Lord had closed that door.

…because the Lord had taken her away.

…because the Lord had clearly said “no.”

Maybe you’ve experienced those four – or seven – disturbing words in your life, too.

…because the Lord had not healed her?

…because the Lord had let him die?

…because the Lord had chosen someone else?

…because the Lord had closed your womb?

As disturbing as those words are — that imply God is in control over the things that we long for or hurt over the most — I have come to trust in the three words that often come in the middle of our story of struggle.

In the middle of Hannah’s story, after she cried out to God in anguish and offered to give back to God what she wanted most, we read the glorious sentence “and the Lord remembered her” – followed by three words that give us hope and help us understand a little of what God might be doing in our lives, too, when we don’t understand his timing.

Those three hopeful words are “in due time.”

“It came about in due time, after Hannah had conceived, that she gave birth to a son; and she named him Samuel,saying, “Because I have asked him of the LORD” (1 Samuel 1:20).

God had a lot he was accomplishing in the world around Hannah before he allowed her to have a son who would grow up to be a significant prophet and priest who would anoint Israel’s first two kings.

In other words, Hannah had a longing. But God was working on her legacy. Hannah was watching the clock. But God was watching a country. Hannah just wanted a baby. But God wanted so much more than for her to just have a child. He wanted a prophet and priest that would help change the heart of a nation. And so God took his time to prepare Hannah to be the kind of mom who could raise up this prophet and priest, at a time when Israel most needed him.

Sometimes what we want is small in the scope of God’s plans. But when we take our desires and set them before him and say “Ultimately, I want your will, God, not mine,” I believe that is the key to seeing him take our desires and turn them into something far more valuable than just making us happy.
When our desires become HIS desires, and his desires become ours, there is nothing that will keep him from blessing our lives.

What is God withholding from you? He just may want to turn your longing into a legacy, your desire into someone else’s destiny, your surrender into someone else’s salvation.

Trust him with the story of your life and what he is waiting to accomplish “in due time.” And trust his Word…even when you don’t understand it.

Have a blessed & Fruitful Day. 🙂


At the Feet of Jesus 2


Few months ago we looked at ‘At the Feet of Jesus’  – , and how it was best to present our troubles and worries to God; leaving it at His feet and trusting Him to help us. Today, we continue with the story . . .

After the first time of dropping my huge duffel bag, I had felt so much at peace with myself. Like a heavy burden had been lifted off my shoulders and I could walk about freely without a care knowing that my troubles would be taken care of.

So it now became a habit for me that any troubles I had I just had to drop them at His feet and enjoy the goodness and benefits I got thereafter. Listening to Him was now secondary. After all, my problems were the only thing that I needed help with.

But one night, when we had finished and were all heading out, the man called me again, “Thank you for coming all this while. How are you feeling?” he asked.

“I’m very fine, thank you. I’m grateful for the opportunity I have been given … I truly appreciate it.” He smiled at me with kind eyes and said I was welcome. I thought that was the end of the conversation till he requested that I speak to him some more and then I wondered what I had done wrong.
“How have you been in all these weeks of coming here?”
His question seemed similar to what he had previously asked and wondered at it. “I’ve been good, in fact great!” He nodded.

“Is that all you want? Rather, do you think that’s all you can get?” I was confused and I was sure my face did justice to my inner turmoil. “Why so much questions?”
“I – I don’t understand what you mean.” The room wasn’t entirely empty with some people lying on the carpeted floor.

“You can be offered much more than what you are getting presently. Don’t be more concerned at the problems solved, be more concerned with knowing who God is. . . What more He can do; or else you would continue to come here ignorantly and leave as empty as you came, your needs met but you would remain at the same level as you are now . . . that’s what I mean.” His words hit me straight in the heart. He spoke so gently it invoked a sorrow within me.

“What level am I?” He told me I wasn’t enjoying life as I should, I was still the same way I had been when I first came.

“You haven’t learnt anything, you may be free from your troubles but you would never be free in other things; free to experience love as it should be, true joy, and so much more.” I thought on what he had said and was curious; curious to know more about what he had said.

“Is it . . . is it too late?” he smiled and shook his head and held out his hand. “No, it’s not. Come . . . let’s discuss.”

I placed my hand in his big warm hand and followed him to sit once again at His feet. The time maybe fast gone but it didn’t matter; I was where I needed to be at the time.

Running to Jesus is not all about getting his benefits but also wanting to know who He is, the person who created us and loves us so intensely; the one who sent His son to die for us. It isn’t just for our pleasure but for His as well. Why wouldn’t you want to take time out to know the God who gives good gifts without adding sorrow?
Are we accustomed to seeking God to meet us at our needs alone or do we yearn to know more about Him?  In Psalm 103 verse 7, it points out how God made known His ways to Moses and His acts to Israel.
Acts 22 verse 3 (AMP) says, “I am a Jew, born in Tarsus of Cilicia but reared in this city. At the feet of Gamaliel I was educated according to the strictest care in the Law of our fathers, being ardent [even a zealot] for God, as all of you are today.”
In the above passage, we see how Paul was educated at the feet of Gamaliel; learning from him. Talk more of seating at the feet of Jesus! This new month let’s make up our minds to seek God not just for what He can do for us, but most importantly ‘because we want to know more of Him and ‘because we love Him.

             ~Forever Loving You~


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